I'm back from Germany as of yesterday.

Part of me is happy because things with transportation ended up being very stressful while we were there.

But the other part of me is very sad for two reasons.
-- One: I'm back and I feel like something's missing. It's that feeling I get after every time that I travel and come back home and don't know what to do with myself even though there so much I could do. And I start work again tomorrow with a double.
-- Two: While I was there it felt different. I hardly took any pictures even though we saw new things (I will post some of the ones I did take later). I was happy to be there, but not overjoyed, except for when we knew we were going to Cologne, but that quickly ended when we had to drive around the city for 4 hours searching for parking.

Don't get me wrong about that last part; I'm so glad we went. It was a good vacation and I was glad to see Anja and her family again. But something with me was different and that makes me feel very sad, because everything with me has changed. Physically and mentally, and I am having a hard time dealing with that.

So now that I've completed the whining...

One thing that I learned in Germany made me very happy. Ecstatic, even. We found out that The Verve, my most favourite band of ALL TIME, is now reunited. I thought it would never ever happen!! And they're touring, only UK tours at the moment, but Adam and I want to try to go to a show in London on November 8th, because that's the two year anniversary of us dating. Amazing gift, I think. I know, it's sad to be so involved in something so material and a moment of time that will pass and never come back, but thinking about missing this chance to see them live really breaks my heart and brings tears to my eyes. I've always wanted to see The Verve or Jeff Buckley live. Jeff Buckley obviuosly won't happen because he's not coming back. But The Verve are back and I want to live my life and take this opportunity to make myself happy.

So I'm having intense mixed feelings of happiness and sadness, but I can't complain because I feel.

My album for today is Sondre Lerche's "Two Way Monologue".